"In the event of my Demise when my heart can beat no more ... I hope I dei for a principle or a belief that I had lived 4... I will dei before my time because I feel the shadow's deph so much I so much I wanted 2 accomplish before I reached my death... I have come 2 grips with the possibility and wiped the last tear from my eyes... I loved all who were positive... In the event of my demise"